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Worst Fears by Paul Edward Fitzgerald Worst Fears Cont. By Paul Edward Fitzgerald Upon visiting their website, however, you find Random House, Harper Collins, and assortment of big established presses are exactly who doesn’t want your unsolicited masterpiece. Rather they will horn in on the action post-success, it seems, or after you’ve gotten an agent who can sell the hell out of your work. A smaller press is the next option. But before you can send in your manuscript you realize you have to do intensive research on many of these smaller publishing companies to avoid corruption, scams, and plagiarism; a surprisingly common occurrence, you’ll find through this nifty research. You also have to be sure you aren’t accidentally signing with a vanity press who is just going to charge you to distribute your book. Oh, and don’t forget the author platform! You have to have that in today’s day and age of social media that rules mankind. Yeah, you may suck at Twitter. But you can hire someone to help with that; a P.A. or promotional expert. You’ll eventually need them any- way for marketing whichever way you go, because even if you publish with a small press, they are a small press; their budget and re- sources for promotion aren’t as big as Harper Collins. You’ll have to pitch in to get your book out there or hire someone to do it for you. But...That means more money... More time...More work. Anyone who thinks becoming a writer is a choice made be- cause you don’t like work or you wish to somehow be rich and famous instantaneously is, without mincing words, a complete and utter moron who clearly doesn’t understand what a financial, physical, mental, and emotional investment the entire process of trying to be a successful writer is. To do things correctly and be taken seriously, you have to go all in and treat it seriously as you would any job. If anything you have to treat writing more seriously than you would most jobs. Again, to take your work seriously a financial investment is a definite. And you are spending money you don’t know you’ll ever make back. Which comes to the emotional and mental strain of knowing how you are one in a million who may never actually be noticed by anyone at all. In fact, the odds are stacked in favor of you becoming an utter failure. At least the odds of becoming as financially secure or achieving the notoriety of James Patter- son or Danielle Steele is pretty slim. And that is something you have to wrestle with daily. That is on top of the depression, anxiety, and self- doubt you have anyway as a sensitive artist, as most writers like myself are. Also coupled with the physical exhaustion of the hours put into your writing, editing, building a platform, learning all you can from who you can, making contacts, and trying to maintain everything including a second job if you have one, it’s any wonder anyone would do what people like me and other emerging writers are trying to do. Most days I struggle to re- member why I am doing it when I look at it in such a harsh light as I often tend to do when a story I put my heart and soul into needs more work or a magazine I really wanted to be in states my work is not commercially accessible through their venue. It’s a crushing, tiring, and unstable line of work to choose to pursue.