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Worst Fears by Gale Cox Worst Fears By Gale Cox As an author I have two main fears. One, that the words will just stop coming one day and I’ll never write again, and two, that no one will be interested in what I write, meaning I won’t sell a single book. There are days, sometimes weeks at a time where I just can’t get the words to come. I’ll sit in front of my computer staring at a blank document because I either can’t organize the words and characters jumbled in my brain to put to paper or the words just escape me. Writing is an integral part of my life and when I can’t seem to do it, it can be quite worrisome and frustrating. What if the words just stop, what if I never write again? In those times, I find if I just don’t push, step away and don’t try to force it, eventually it’ll all become clear and at some point the words just start to flow and when they do, oh, what an awesome feeling it is! The other fear that resides in me and seems to be a constant, especially when I’m done writing a book, is, what if no one likes it? What if everyone hates it and I don’t sell a single copy? I know it’s an insecurity on my part but the fear is so real, it’s almost tangible. Until that first copy is sold, I fret and wonder, what if it doesn’t sell? What if it’s terrible and I’ve made a huge mistake? Then that first book sells and the fear eases. I don’t think I’m unique in these fears and I’m sure every author has some version of the them. I believe that’s why it’s especially helpful to find author buddies and friends to talk and share with to help ease those pesky fears.