1998.03.01
Why is it not eaten what I left to be eaten 3? Who can answer Me? I am the One Who hears the one who answers Me.
Oh, where are you, My creature? You, the first created man, answer Me! Answer to Me, so that the entire human race may hear, as I am the God of the living and of those that are asleep. Answer to Me, you that are built by My hand from the earth! Amen, amen, amen.
− Here I am, Lord. Who can stand against Your word? Is he really the one, who can answer besides me? I am the first created man; created by Your hand and by Your love. You built me of word and love, and out of love and clay, and You called me man. You did not call me meat, and You called me man. I am the one who has sinned against You and against me, and You were the Most High. You are my Creator and the Creator of those that are seen and not seen, which means God, but by disobedience I became a thief. You gave me everything that You created for me, but I have craved for what is Yours, Lord. You have been the Righteous One, and You did not hide from me those of Yours, and rather You put them into the midst of the paradise, so that they may Yours and not mine; so that Your sign may be into my way, so that You may be with a sign before me always, and for me to have free will and to love You with it and to be Your love, and for You to be my love in everything that I have, and to be Yours and not mine. But I became conceited. Oh, how could I do this? There was no one on the earth that I may rise myself above. I arose against You, Lord. I wanted to be like You and more than You. You put me into the paradise from Eden and You gave me everything that You made for the man and I got haughty in my thought that I was ruler over everything and I said to myself: « I am God and I sit on God’ s throne ». Because of my beauty, my heart became haughty and by my haughtiness I lost my obedience and wisdom, as it is written into the Scriptures about my deed, about the haughtiness of my heart in the paradise from Eden. When You saw that I turned my haughtiness into my wisdom, You took care of my life and gave me a commandment: « Of every tree of the garden you may freely eat: but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, you shall not eat of it; for in the day that you eat of it you will surely die ».
I walked with self-conceit before You, Lord, and I told Your mystery to the woman that I called woman and I called her flesh of my flesh and bone of my bones, and I said that she was mine. I did not want to be Yours with everything that was mine, with everything that I had made and given from You, and I pulled myself out of You and I joined with the woman with my heart. Eden was Your garden; it was not mine, but my iniquity born out of the haughtiness of my heart nestled into my heart. When I told the woman Your commandment not to eat of the tree, the woman of my flesh turned from flesh into lust, and her thought worked by her own lust, and the beautiful angel worked for the woman through the body of the serpent which wriggled on the tree with fruits forbidden to eat. This urged the woman to eat, telling her that she would not die, but rather « their eyes will be opened and they will be like God, knowing good and evil ». The serpent became a bad omen into the way of the man by the man’ s lust, by the man’ s haughtiness, as You stand against those who become haughty into the thought of their heart, Lord, Creator of everything, and You put enmity between the serpent and the man, and the love started to cry in Eden, and the nature was also crying because of the man’ s fall, for the man became flesh and corruptible fleshly nature, Lord and the flesh is drawn to the flesh and the flesh is for death, not for God.
What is the flesh? Here is Your question, Lord. Who is the one who made it? I am the one that answers You. I am the one that made flesh out of the work of Your hand and corruptible fleshly
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« God also said, ' Look, to you I give all the seed-bearing plants everywhere on the surface of the earth, and all the trees with seed-bearing fruit; this will be your food. »( Gen. 1 / 29.)
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