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THEGAYUK APRIL/MAY ISSUE 3 Linda, a 55 years old mother from Glasgow, Scotland. Linda has two now-adult children her daughter Julie, 37 years old and her son Darren, 34 years old. Tell us, how did you Come Out to your children? Mine had a whole load of baggage built in; my relationship with my adult children was affable but inevitably affected by  their marred childhood. And it was,  thanks to a violently bipolar father, and a mother who must have appeared to pay more attention to him than to them. Difficult to cite diversionary tactics, although this was often true; he was perfectly capable of inflicting cruelty on them to make me suffer; obvious confrontation gave him power.  Not the whole story, of course; I admit that I was a dutiful and pragmatic parent, rather than the sort of warm, cuddly mother that my own mum was .   So after  my husband's  death and my subsequent ecstatic love affair with my beautiful partner, it became apparent that I would need to tell the kids.   I dreaded it.   I prepared. Rehearsed. Lost sleep. Imagined worst-case scenarios. But it had to be done; I'm gay, whatever their reaction, I told myself; and I can't keep it secret forever. This was at a moment when diplomatic channels were open and the climate looking propitious for the announcement, but that almost made it worse, in that there was so much more to lose.   Things will always be tricky. But these things have to be worked at, and at least hailing frequencies are open. What were you worried about before you Came Out? I feared yet another barrier to add to the issues they already had with their father and me as parents. 72 LINDA’S STORY 2014 REAL LIFE How old were your children when you Came Out to them? Julie was 29 and Darren was 27. Has it made you closer to your children? No, we're not closer. I'm on good terms with both, but there are  always underlying reservations.  Neither of them is homophobic, but bear in mind that even liberal children can be shocked to think that their parents actually have sex - eeeeeew! let alone a form of sex with which they may not be too familiar! Have any of your children told their friends or partner about your sexuality? I told Julie’s partner. He was totally cool with it. Darren my son presumably told his wife.  Both children's  partners have always been supportive and affectionate. I have no idea w h e t h e r  m y c h i l d r e n have  told their friends; possibly not, since my being a l e s b i a n  h a s n e v e r b e e n considered a suitable topic for conversation with them. They wouldn't hide it if asked,  but as I don't present as particularly butch and visit rarely, I'd be surprised if anyone would be that interested.