Pauza Magazine Winter & Spring 2005 | Page 10

Page 10 had the opportunity to return to Arizona at mid-service. I signed up to the World Wise Schools Program at Pre-Service Training in September 2003. I had not heard about the program before but as an avid letterwriter I was excited to know that I would be connected to a group of students with whom I could share my experience. I received my first email from the Grand Canyon Middle School teacher Jillian Worssam right after becoming a volunteer in December 2003. She informed me that she had been a volunteer in the Philippines and that was one of the reasons why she had decided to incorporate the World Wise Schools program into her teaching curriculum at Grand Canyon. The Grand Canyon School system is not very big and thus the students whom Jillian teaches in the 7th grade continue to have her as an instructor in the 8th grade. This was great for me because it meant that I would be corresponding with the same group of students for the majority of my service. I really looked forward to the big packet of letters that I received once a month from the students at the Grand Canyon. I learned all about their families, their pets, and the things they liked to do with their spare time. In turn, I shared my experiences here in Macedonia with them. I told them about the holidays, the food, Macedonians, and my vacations. The experiences were not always favorable and I commend Jillian for her ability as a teacher to incorporate the difficulties that I was experiencing into the curriculum she was using. Writing the letters was not a big deal and so I had no idea what the impact was on the students until I actually visited the P a u z a Grand Canyon. I returned to the States around Thanksgiving and on my first day in Arizona, it snowed. I was visiting the Grand Canyon the next day and, because the Canyon is about 90 miles north of my hometown, I called Jillian on the morning of my visit to make sure that the roads were open and navigable. Jillian assured me that the roads were fine but to hurry because all the kids were zooming to the window every time that a car pulled into the parking lot to see if was me. My dad and I arrived around noon and we spent the whole afternoon with the students. I was shocked at the effort these kids had put into an event to honor someone that they only knew through letters. Their classroom was completely decorated with banners, balloons, and streamers and they had prepared a feast with each student bringing a homemade dish to share with the rest of the class. A lot of the students come from diverse backgrounds and so even though it was close to Thanksgiving, our meal was less than traditional. I was really touched when I noticed that some of the dishes were those that I had specifically mentioned in letters when discussing the foods I missed. In addition to the feast, the students had put together a whole gift box with t-shirts and other things from the Grand Canyon and this fabulous photo album with pictures of their class, the Grand Canyon, and the surrounding area. Jillian had arranged for all of them to be excused from their classes for the day. We used the opportunity to talk about Macedonia, to walk up to the North Rim of the Canyon for ice cream cones, and to play Grand Canyon Middle School's special version of dodge ball. It was an unforgettable day and there are not enough words to describe how thankful I am for having that experience. There is no doubt that we will continue to have to fill out quarterly reports because as a federal government institution Peace Corps must continue to have statistics to reflect the impact of the organization on the communities that we work in. Focusing on concrete activities intended to achieve the first goal is also going to be necessary once we reenter the job force as well. Nonetheless, the things that are going to make this experience valuable to you are those things that are not quantifiable. How do you measure the impact of having a great na gosti experience? How do you measure the impact of your letter on your friends and family at home where you tell about the effect of celebrating an imenden? How do I measure the appreciation I feel for those kids at the Grand Canyon for making me feel proud of being a Peace Corps Volunteer? The fact is that we don't, and we don't have to. The point is to remember what Jillian wrote to me and I included as a quote at the beginning of this article: you are not a failure. ( "I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and doggone it, people LIKE ME!" 2 0 0 5