Huffington Magazine Issue 92-93 | Seite 77

JOHANNES EISELE/AFP/GETTY IMAGES HEALING caused by blows to their moral foundation, damaging their sense of right and wrong and often leaving them with traumatic grief. Moral injuries aren’t always evident. But they can be painful and enduring. “Everybody has demons, but there are some wild kind of demons when you come back from combat,” said a Navy corpsman (the Navy’s name for its medics) who served a tour each in Iraq and Afghanistan and asked not to be identified by name. He was once unable to save a Marine with terrible head wound, and afterwards felt other Marines blamed him. “You come home and ask yourself, HUFFINGTON 03.16-23.14 what the hell did I do all that for? You gotta live with that shit and there’s no program that the military can send you to or any class that’s really gonna help.” “Guilt is the root of it,” he said. “Asking yourself, why are you such a bad person?” He wasn’t that way before his military service. “I have a hard time dealing with the fact that I’m not me anymore.” Marine Staff Sgt. Felipe Tremillo also is struggling with guilt. Two years after he came home from his second combat tour, in Afghanistan, Tremillo still is haunted by images of the women and children he saw suffer from the violence and destruction of war. “Terrible things happened to the people we are supposed to be helping,” he said. “We’d do raids, A 10-year old wounded Afghan girl is carried by a U.S. army medic to a medical evacuation helicopter to be airlifted to Kandahar hospital on Aug. 21, 2011. ((0