Huffington Magazine Issue 67 | Page 56

HUFFINGTON 09.22.13 INVISIBLE CASUALTIES couch in someone’s house. “I thought, ‘We gotta get the Navy to release him.’ That’s what I’d been praying for since I found out what he was doing there. It just kept getting pushed back, the medical board. He’d say, ‘Dad, they take forever,’ and I’d say, ‘Josh, it’s gonna happen, we will get you home.’” “When I looked him in his eyes that morning,” Don said, “I thought, we have to get him home.” On Feb. 26, Joshua was taken by ambulance to the Sentara Bayside Hospital emergency room in Virginia Beach, complaining of panic attacks and chest pain. In the hospital’s record of that visit, the section on “drug use” is marked “no.” He was given a prescription anti-anxiety drug, Ativan, and sent home with a handout advising him to “use the Ativan as needed for anxiety ... avoid caffeine, benadryl and other over the counter medications. Avoid alcohol.” Ativan is a benzodiazepine, a common antidepressant to which Joshua had become addicted, according to Navy medi- cal records. Its effects are magnified by alcohol. Two weeks later, in early March, Joshua came home for a quick visit. He admitted to Emily that he was doing heroin. She was furious, reminding him that when their mom was doing heroin he said he’d never do it. They had a big fight; Joshua smashed the car windshield. When Emily told her dad that Joshua was doing heroin, he was horrified. “I thought, the Navy isn’t helping us,” Don said. “How could he be passing his drug tests?” But he knew he had to do something. On the morning of March 15, he called a friend, a drug abuse counselor. He said he didn’t want to make things worse between Joshua and Emily; could the counselor talk to Joshua without mentioning the heroin? She agreed. Hours later, Leslie called with her frantic warning, setting in motion the flurry of final calls. ‘DROP THE SHAME’ Joshua’s former commanding officer, Cmdr. Gary Leigh, came to the military funeral in Wilmington, where Joshua lay in an open casket. Leigh bent over and tenderly