Huffington Magazine Issue 67 | Page 55

HUFFINGTON 09.22.13 INVISIBLE CASUALTIES care of it,” Don said, referring to Joshua’s addiction. He thought the birth of Joshua’s daughter, Jayden, in September, would change Joshua’s life, help him kick drugs. “When you hold her for the first time, you’re going to love her so much — just like I loved you when I held you for the first time,” Don told him. “And he said, ‘Dad, you were right,’ he absolutely loved her,” Don said to me. “And he said, ‘Dad, you don’t have to worry because the Navy is going to drug test me all the time so it would show up.’” “That made sense to me,” Don thought, “because he’s a known drug abuser so they would keep an eye on him.” Joshua went back to his old job, staring at security cameras at Oceana Naval Air Station in Virginia Beach. He was bored to tears, he told Don. Anxious to get on with his life, but stuck until the Navy processed his discharge. Going home occasionally to hang out with Andrew and Emily and check in on his mom. She died Feb. 10 of colon cancer. The family, Don said, “was in bad shape.” A memorial service was held two days later in New Jersey. Joshua had to be back on duty that Monday, Valentine’s Day, a traditional family holiday when the Lipstein clan would gather. “My heart sank for him, knowing he had to leave,” Don said. “Here he’s leaving his wife and daughter, family — all the people he loves the most, after his mom’s memorial service, going back to a job he hates, living on a Joshua is pictured straight out of boot camp in 2005.