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skiing on the wakes of waves of water; I was socializing with a
female whom I targeted for an exchange of affectation I had long
been denied. This context of my identity had shifted to a time place
similar to the Gold Calf Worship. Where the desire to possess gold
could overwhelm an individual to violate many ethical tenets ,
much worse is to worship the affections of a wo man. There is no
doubt as to what Ho mo sapiens can be suckered in to, and the wiles
of a wo man have their place in history, so metimes engraved in
gold to portray their essential comme moration. It is only in the
deep forests that we meet the true respect of womanhood, as close
to Mother Nature as one can be.
Wherefrom the enticements of women able to draw the Childre n
of Israel away fro m their ancestral ethical treasures (spiritual and
material) in the days of Balaam. Many ideologies have endeavored
to impress upon its believers to beware the pitfalls of lewd decline
into spiritual de mise. To be particular down to the slightest detail
involved in the daily matters of survival; cautious at every turn,
refrain from shooting a glance with eyes pasted on the progress o f
one's feet, and keep moving until arriving surely to their
destination. I had sunk into the quagmire of gentile teenagers
mulling around to avoid the abysmal worthlessness of the huma n
conditioned to Urban Aggravation. There is no question as to
whether these inclinations prevail over the consciousness of the
elderly. Even unto the grave sensations initiate perception that
leads the imagination to grandiose happenstance .
Set some seven decades into my journey through the id and ego
and into the realm of internal expansion uniquely , wherein I'm
trapped in the rea lity of no one in my living environment that
identifies my personage as important to his or her existentia l
existence. Might do well to take that sentence apart thought b y
thought. Religious adherence as a sociological identification ;
ritual associated therewith, be it not to my liking, yet has an
overwhelming pragmatic importance to survival as an active
participant in the social institution of fa mily, co mmunity, and
immediate environmental society. Ritual and cere mony are the
bread and water of human community. Ergo, the entire set and all
subsets contain the human resources defined as what and who I
AM and will be ! The society of geriatric cases in the world can no
longer withstand the complexity and stress of Urban Aggravation,
to wit must apply conflict resolution. So this old man, sucked into
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