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B"H From my days as a student in psychology , during which I learned that the notion of Pavlovian elicitation might be readily understood when someone prods his mind to recall the taste of a preferred food substance as a primary awareness in the decisio n what he or she intends to eat. The mo ment of ingestion is recalled; the touch of the tongue, the fragrance, and closure of the lips are previewed as tactile excite ment appearing upon the monitor o f inner vision experiencing sixth-sensual titillation I felt when, upon previous occurrence I absorbed the delicacy into my mouth. Imagine the salivation the like s of which Pavlov aroused in his unwilling laboratory subjects as you conceive manipulating a tast y food ite m into your mouth and catching the tangy flavor on your tongue. Our bodies process sensations recorded in me mory. The greater the force and reinforcement of specific self-indulgence from the environment; the easier it is to imagine the effort to procure the articles, the more difficult it is to restrain stimulatio n aroused by the memory. Safrascity is about the furthest place on the globe fro m my natural habitat, and five decades had pas sed since my college days, but the aforementioned teenage celebration I wanted the memory of my youthful sexual exploits to assume preeminence, thinkin g wishfully that one of the female guests could be drawn into my sexist web. As I approached a table at w hich two youthful fe minine characters were seated, I didn't question how I could be the only party interested. Most everybody paid no attention to me until I whipped out a bottle of wine and with raised glasses blessed l'chayim with the Elephant son. I also raised glasses with the young lady named Maria. The bottle quickly emptied, but Maria remained seated across fro m me. The backdrop to this scene was nothing other than the holy arc in which is housed the holy Torah, the party being staged in the synagogu e. For all that, I was draw n like flecks of metal to a magnet, into the social morass of two females whose role in that scene most mysterious . I'm projecting my own evil as described from my own reference, whereas the entire population of males there, who knew better than I did, kept their distance fro m the forbidden fruit. Every millimeter of the apartment was filled with a multitude whose likes I had never encountered before at a Purim celebration. I saw nothing but Maria who sat in conversation with me , and it was in her that my interest was piqued. It was the rush of water- 73