needing a place to be alone, I went into the small park restroom and sat on the floor beside the toilette. The door wouldn’ t lock. I was afraid. There in that bathroom, something hit me. I was all alone. No one was with me. No one, except Jesus. This is when I realized, when push came to shove, Jesus was all I had. Although my parents were always ready to welcome me back home, I now saw, there was no one who could be there for me like Jesus could.
HimPower: Was there any particular event that led to you to accept Christ as your personal Lord and Savior?
Wiebracht: I believe I accepted Jesus as a child. I asked him for forgiveness many times as a young girl and I surrendered my life to him at about age 12. However, as I grew older, I began to reject Him, and tried to replace Him with other things. I attempted to have my deepest needs met in men, drugs, my appearance and in cutting. It all left me empty. There is a verse that I love where Jesus is at a feast, and He gets up and cries out,“ If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said,‘ Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’”( John 7:37-38). This is the truth. God’ s Spirit within me is the only one who can meet the deep cravings of my soul. It is His
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But now he has reconciled you by Christ’ s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation—
Colossians 1:22
Spirit that provides the forgiveness and relief from my shame, which cutting could never accomplish. It is His Spirit that gives me the joy, release and hope that I craved from drugs. Again, it is His Spirit who provides me with the love that I so desired from men. And it is His Spirit that tells me I am fearfully and wonderfully made- not the mirror or the scale.( See Psalm 139:14)
HimPower: How has your life changed as a result of your relationship with Christ?
Wiebracht: First and foremost, because Jesus gave himself up on the cross for me and spilled His blood for my freedom, and then rose back up from the grave— only because of this— I now stand blameless and pure, without a single fault. I am free. Not because of anything I have done or failed to do, but only because His sacrifice bought my soul. It is finished. He purchased me, and there is nothing I can do to add or take away from that purchase. That overwhelms me with joy.( See Colossians 1:22)
In regards to how my life has been transformed as I have grown closer to Jesus, He has changed the longings of my heart. The more I run to Him to have the needs of my soul filled, the more desirous I become of His Spirit and the less attractive my own idols and broken cisterns appear. Although I no longer use hard drugs, or cut, or have an