HG Matters Issue 2 | Page 8

Dealing With Hyperemesis Gravidarum Written by: Tiffany Addante No one understands. No one. No one understands but someone who is and has gone through what you are going through. The acute morning sickness you deal with day in and day out; the struggle to get up in the morning; the debilitating effect of throwing up so much that you want to die, literally; The gut retching effect of throwing up so much that you believe one time you may start throwing up organs. No one understands the pain you’re in. The gripping stomach pain that attacks you all through the day, as you are sitting on the bathroom floor throwing up or laying over the side of the bed(because getting up and making it to the toilet is something you can’t do) you are just praying for it all to end. You don’t care how it ends…even if it means miscarrying that baby inside of you. As you are sitting their trying to catch your breath after throwing up every possible fluid inside of you, you are filled with mixed emotions: Depression, fatigue, soreness, sorrow, guilt and hatred. As you think about having to go through this for 3 more months you start to hate that little baby inside of you…yes hate. You hate it for causing you so much pain and suffering. You can’t imagine something so small can cause so much pain. You don’t know how you are going to make it. Then you feel guilty for hating that baby. As you pick yourself up off the ground you trudge back to bed and even walking is making you want to rush back in and throw up again, not that there is anything left. As you lay there you feel so week and try not to move too much because you know it you do, you will be running for that toilet again. 7 Continued on page 8