Have you ever been that hungry you
could eat your arm because you haven't
eaten in hours? Well try weeks and then
getting shouted at because you couldn't
stop yourself from vomiting after one bite.
During this horrible time what I didn't
need was doctor receptionists asking
me why I am still sick, have I tried
crackers or ginger, midwives not
drugging me on time, telling me they
had "morning sickness" and still went
to work, being shoved in a room at the
end of the ward, almost like if we put
the ones that "can't cope" at the end
we can forget about them. Due to this I
refuse in this pregnancy to go to
hospital, I probably should but I hated
hospital stays, being told to get up and
walk about when all I wanted to do was
die in bed. Being told to shower, eat,
drink, being told I ate too much and
that's why I was sick. Honestly I
couldn’t win.
Hubby now knows I have to be regulated.
Little meals at a time, little drinks because
I can't stop myself sometimes. Of course
most days I eat and drink nothing so when
I feel a tummy rumble I forget that my
eyes have the vision of my former self but
my body can't handle it. Ever felt like your
being treated like a child because you
can't be trusted? That's how I feel about
food and drink. It's almost like I have an
eating disorder and people have to watch
what I am doing.
I have safe foods and drinks...crackers and
ginger seriously aren't on this list. Ginger
tastes vile coming back up and this is how
HG women pick their food. I learnt early
with J that fish pie was a no no. I still can't
eat it! I lived on diet coke and haribo for
god knows how long, then for some
reason your body rejects that and it is
time to find another safe food. We
jumped to this diet straight away this
time. It didn’t work.
Written by: Genna Rourke
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