Daughters of Promise March/April 2014 | Page 20

romantic evening with incense and candles and a nice dinner, but as her husband drew her close to tell her how beautiful she was, she pulled away—her preparations weren’t finished. As she rushed around the room, lighting candles and dimming lights, he said softly, “Honey, I don’t want candles. I want you.” As I read, I thought, “Wow! What woman doesn’t want to hear that?!” But I also secretly identified with her response of discomfort. She wrote that the idea of giving herself to her husband without all We must be careful that what we do for God does not become more important than our relationship with Him. the extras made her uncomfortable. Allowing him to love her, just as she was, was scary. After all, what if she gave him her heart and he rejected it? It was much safer to offer things like candles and perfect makeup and fabulous meals. Because let’s be honest: it doesn’t hurt to have the candles or dinner rejected like it does to have your heart discarded. I share in this woman’s struggle. Love is risk. It is vulnerability and emotional nakedness. And like the wife, I’d much rather extend nice deeds than my heart. It feels safer. Think about it: giving my hurting friend a book about trust is easier than inviting her to share her heart and dealing with the personal inadequacies such a conversation might raise. Sending a card of encouragement to a grieving friend is safer than sitting face to face and experiencing heart-wrenching loss with her. So, love gets a little regimented; another thing to check off the to-do list. And ultimately, a great deal of impact is lost. In the next issue, we will open a conversation about how to practically engage our hearts, not just our limbs, in loving others. For now, I want to address the spiritual aspect behind this issue. Turns out, we face the temptation to bring lists to our romance with Jesus, too. We find it easiest to identify our love for God by what we accomplish for Him. Again, I have never written, “love God today” on my todo list. But I have been known to strategize things like this in my heart: -spend a year in Voluntary Service with a Mennonite mission -spend an hour reading the Bible every morning -volunteer at the church’s kids’ ministry every week -sacrifice financially to support an overseas missionary -lead the ladies’ Bible study 20