Daughters of Promise March/April 2014 | Page 21

Surely, these things are a blessing to the heart of God! There is nothing wrong with any of them. However, they are empty unless inspired by an outpouring of adoration for Christ. We must be careful that what we do for God does not become more important than our relationship with Him. See, God created the Universe. He fabricated the Pacific Rim and etched the ridges of Everest. He created you from the miraculous embedding of seed in seed. As the Almighty Creator, God really doesn’t need you to do anything for Him. What He does desire is your heart. Loving God is not a formula we follow—it is a relationship we pursue. The book of James, so prominent in its emphasis on the works of faith, never wavers from the truth that works are produced by love—not the other way around. All our good deeds are as filthy rags outside of the redeeming blood of Christ, meaningless beyond the context of response to Him. Like the tender husband in the story, God delights in the things we do to show our commitment— but most of all He yearns for us. For our hearts! To love God with our whole heart, we must let Him love us first. His love is unlike any you’ve ever known—being all at once faithful, passionate, purging, and whimsical. Our hearts long for it as much as we tremble at the vulnerability it requires. Like the wife in the story, we fear being deeply known—what if the result is rejection? What if He sees something I have tried all my life to hide? What if I lose control? It feels safer to hold God at arms’ length than to become still and spiritually To refuse to accept the gift of His love without attempting to earn it on my own is to replant the poison seed of Eden; to echo Eve in the face of my Maker: “What you have provided is not enough.” naked before Him. I struggled for a long time with the concept of intimacy with God—mostly due to a belief that He was cold and distant. Those robust Sunday School renditions of “Jesus Loves Me” left no doubt in my intellect, but as the innocence of childhood waned, “the Bible tells me so” no longer cut it as an explanation for how I knew He loved me. The vision of a Holy Savior moving resolutely from town to town preaching in somber tones just didn’t connect with my simple desire to be known and loved. I feared divine rejection and believed deep down that the only reason Jesus would accept me was if I could do enough to earn His favor. It took the gentle intervention of the Holy Spirit along with the loving input of wise mentors to open my eyes to the truth. I saw my own pride measured against the steep price Jesus paid. I realized that to try to earn His love was like saying, “Sorry God… 21