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is in proportion to the level of prevailing awareness (jagruti). If
the awareness is greater, then greater and faster is the dissolution
of ‘I-ness’. One’s I-ness is slower to go if the awareness is
weak.
But You have hundred percent ‘I-ness’ after attaining this
Gnan. If the awareness is strong, then ten percent of ‘I-ness’ will
instantly go away and if it is weak then only two percent of it
will go away.
Questioner: Then a ninety percent of the ‘I-ness’ will
remain, will it not?
Dadashri: Yes. Those with greater awareness have
ninety percent remaining and those with lesser awareness will
have ninety-eight percent remaining.
Questioner: How does the remaining ‘I-ness’ then go
away?
Dadashri: It will come out the next time.
Questioner: So, does the ‘I-ness’ go away as the udaya
karma unfolds?
Dadashri: Yes, but the speed at which it goes away
depends on the degree, intensity and strength of the awareness
(jagruti). Therefore awareness will increase proportionately by
whatever percentage the ‘I-ness’ diminishes. Also, potapanu
decreases as the jagruti increases.
The Exact Awareness of Separation
Questioner: If awareness prevails as circumstances
unfold, then ten percent or two percent of the ‘I-ness’ has gone
away. So what kind of awareness is that? How does the
awareness (jagruti) that makes the I-ness diminish, work?
Dadashri: It is the awareness of ‘I am Shuddhatma’; it
is the awareness of the five Agnas. There is awareness of ‘Who
is this? Who am I?’ There is awareness that ‘the ‘one’ abusing