Aptavani-9
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discharge. And what is this ego like? There is already a stock
within and a new stock is also flowing in; both get together
inside. With us (mahatma), the charging ego is gone and the
stock within still remains. The pending stock of the ego within
other people (non-Self realized people) is also discharging, but
there is also a new charging, hence new filling (creation of new
karmas) is taking place simultaneously. For us it is discharging
and nothing charges anew. Therefore, the charging ego goes
away but the ‘discharge’ ego is still there. This discharge ego is
the ‘I-ness’.
Relationship between karma, ‘I-ness’ and
awareness
Questioner: So after Gnan, the ‘I-ness’ part is considered
a discharge?
Dadashri: That is a discharge; it is the karmic stock filled
in the last life (bharelo maal). As that stock goes away as it
discharges, so will the ‘I-ness’.
Questioner: So does the ‘I-ness’ remain on the basis of
this baggage?
Dadashri: Yes.
Questioner: So will the ‘I-ness’ go down as the baggage
empties?
Dadashri: Yes, the ‘I-ness’ will go down as the baggage
empties. Otherwise, it will not go down by itself. The ‘I-ness’
will end as the reservoir of pending karmas; karmas that remain
to be discharged, empty.
Whatever amount of ‘I-ness’ leaves; that much of it is
gone. If only a small amount leaves, it means more of it still
remains and if a lot of it leaves then there is relatively little of it
left. The greater the awareness (jagruti), the more the I-ness
(potapanu) will be removed. The degree of dissolution of I-ness