490 Aptavani-9
does not do any charging of new karmas. This‘ I-ness’ is a discharge; it is that which will melt away.
Discharge ego is‘ I-ness’
Your ego is now gone. The ego of doer-ship, the charging ego is gone. The ego of doer-ship( ahamkar) and‘ my-ness’( mamata) both go away when‘ we’ give you Gnan. But the‘ I- ness’, ego that is in discharge, the potapanu still remains.
What does this mean? It is the ego( ahamkar), which is not living. Basically it is the ego( I am Chandulal). For example, take the mixture of churmu( flour, ghee, and jaggery); if you roll it in a ball, it is called a ladvo. If you pat it down and cut it into pieces( chakta), it is called barfi churmu. And if you do neither and leave it as it is, it is called churmu. All three are different deserts. They are all different phases of basically the same thing. In this example the churmu is the equivalent of the base ego of‘ I am Chandulal’ and‘ this is mine’ is mamata. The ghee and jaggery mixed in the flour represents the coming together of the other non-Self elements to form a basic mixture. Then various forms of the mixture can take different shapes and forms. All these are different expressions of the worldly ego which are all residual, dying ego, after Gnan.
The ahamkar( ego) and mamata( my-ness) have left and that is the part we are calling potapanu( I-ness); it looks like the ego.
Questioner: So what is the difference between ego( ahamkar) and‘ I-ness’( potapanu)?
Dadashri: The ego will never move away; it will never decrease.
Questioner: So does the‘ I-ness’ move away?
Dadashri:‘ I-ness’ will continue to decrease.‘ I-ness’ means a stock of baggage. A stock of ego; it continues to