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stage. In the vyavahar (worldly life), one falls before reaching
the eleventh stage. All of a sudden one reaches the eleventh
stage and then falls again. Therefore, the eleventh gunthanu is
applicable to the worldly life and here there is upsham – the
inner kashayas are latent, like the smoldering coals.
So it will not work, until everything within is destroyed.
Nothing will work until all the vyavahar comes to an end. Hey!
One cannot even get past the ninth stage! As long as one
continues to have sensual thoughts, he will not be able to cross
the ninth. So if he ever tries to talk about Gnan, he will find
himself in a predicament. There is grave danger in it, grave
danger, because the diseases are still latent within; they have not
been destroyed. They will have to go. They will have to be
destroyed first. It is like a smoldering fire, there is no telling
when it will ignite again.
Partiality towards the self veils the reign of
the Self
One is still partial towards the relative self. There is
complete partiality towards the relative self. When you stop
being partial to the self, you can discover your mistakes. Do you
understand what is meant by partiality? The belief and the
awareness of ‘I am Chandulal’ is no longer in existent, it is gone,
but when karmas come into fruition, you become one with the
karma (udaya-swaroop). The moment you become udaya-
swaroop, the awareness (jagruti) is shrouded and hence you
cannot see the mistakes. This old tendency of becoming udaya-
swaroop becomes weak when you continue attending satsangs
and the awareness of the Self (upayog) becomes firm. Lack of
satsang leads to the shrouding of the awareness as the Self.
If a thief enters your home, you will be able to know right
away because of the presence of the Soul (the Self) within. But
why is it that you are not able to know? Because there is a
partiality and a belief within of ‘Nothing will happen to us’ and