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Aptavani-9
‘We’ have to seriously caution the one whose awareness
(jagruti) increases significantly. He is safe if he abides by the
Agnas. But it is very difficult to have a safe side.
The fact that you can see your ego, it is very good
awareness (jagruti). Otherwise you will see everything but your
own ego. Everything else will be evident. That which is going to
aggressively overpower you, is the only one that will not be
evident.
The intellect (buddhi) must come to an end, then the ego
and then all the rest of the desires of the pudgal (the non-Self
complex). At the moment, these desires (ichchha) are not
evident within, but they are there for sure, latent and smoldering
(upsham) within. They are suppressed within and they must all
come to an end (kshay). At the moment one is not aware of all
these desires. As long as thoughts of sexuality (vishaya) arise,
it proves that desires of the pudgal (the non-Self complex) are
indeed present. As long as sexual thoughts arise within, it is
evident that the physical desires are real and until then the fire
within is smoldering and latent.
Therefore, be cautious. This is very dangerous, it will
topple you over and there is no telling where you will land. Not
only will the awareness (jagruti) go away but even this state of
samkit - the right vision that you have acquired - will go away
too. That ego and everything else within will then take control
over you. That is why the Lord called them “upsham goon” -
smoldering attributes (latent kashayas), which are likely to
reignite anytime and make you fall for sure.
Questioner: But since you have placed us on the twelfth
gunasthanak – the twelfth spiritual stage, we will not fall will
we?
Dadashri: No, You will not fall. Who is likely to fall? The
one who is in the worldly life will fall. The twelfth spiritual stage
is for the nischaya; the Self, and vyavahar is on the eleventh