448 Aptavani-9
so this leads to that aspect being veiled and shrouded and therefore it does not let You‘ know’. Otherwise it is easy to‘ know’ and understand.
Upon hearing the question,‘ Whose ring is beautiful?’ one will immediately raise his hand, because there is partiality of‘ my ring is beautiful’ towards his ring.
Similarly one is partial to one’ s self, and that partiality will inevitably render one deluded( moorchhit). The delusion is such that it will not allow him to know that there is partiality.‘ We’ have destroyed your belief of‘ I am Chandulal’, and the Self that you have received remains as the Self too, but in the dizzy turn of the udayakarma i. e. karma unfolding, you lose awareness of‘ what mistakes am I making and where do my mistakes lie?’
Everything is governed entirely by mistakes and because of this, your realm and domain of the Self is veiled.‘ We’ have given you the Self, but its realm, power and energy( satta) is completely veiled. This is why the energy of speech( vachanbud) and the energy of the mind( manobud) do not blossom. Otherwise, how well the energy of speech blossoms! Even now one is partial to sexuality( vishaya), deceit( kapat), and the ego( ahamkar). Therefore maintain upayog; maintain jagruti- the applied awareness as the Self- and keep the force of attendance in satsang. Then your mistakes in your worldly interactions( vyavahar) will become evident and the light of the Self will travel far and wide. What happens if you do not attend satsang? The upayog( application of awareness) will be halted. Why is that? It is because of the partiality towards the relative self! And you will not even know that this has taken place.
Awareness( jagruti) is not Gnan. Awareness is simply awareness. Gnan is a different thing. Awareness means to awaken from sleep( to be awakened from the ignorance of who am I? It is to awaken to the knowledge of the Self). Now You are awake. Now there is no longer ignorance of your real Self. Gnan is a very great thing.