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Aptavani-9 331 does not have garva?’ No matter how much peace a Sat Purush gives to others, he does not have a sense of, ‘I am giving him peace, I am doing it.’ He knows that He is merely instrumental (nimit) in the process and that He is merely unfolding His own bliss for him. Therefore He (the Gnani) does not have garva of anything because when there is no ego at all, how can there be any garva? There is garva when the ego is present. ‘We’ do not have that garva. ‘We’ do not have any sense of, ‘I performed this action or I did this.’ It is because people indulge in the taste of doer-ship that they are able to live. Today even renowned readers of scriptures live on the basis of taking garva, ‘I am doing it’; they are caught up in its euphoria! In the presence of this garvaras, which he enjoys so much, he does not like anything else. One will say, ‘I renounced everything. I renounced my wife, I have come here leaving millions of rupees behind, so I must be here for liberation!’ So I tell him, ‘you know the reason you have come here but how can we tell what other tastes you like to enjoy? You do not like money, but there are many other tastes of garva out there; there is garva of fame. As long as a person enjoys any garvaras, he should not talk about liberation (moksha). If we pour water on a drunk, will he not lose his intoxication? The poor man will say, ‘Sir, there is no fool like me. I do not understand anything. Sir punish me if you have to but give me something.’ ‘We’ will liberate him first, because he has become worthy of liberation. This is all the worthiness one needs for liberation. The intoxication (keyf) of ‘I know’ increases with garvaras One has read scriptures for many lives without attaining anything. That is why Krupadudev said, ‘there is no solution (for