330
Aptavani-9
is a big mistake. What can the Lord do in all this? That is why
Krupadudev has said,
‘Das varshey re dhara ullasi, mityon udaya karma no
garva re.’
‘At the age of ten, the brim of the ocean of bliss was
reached, along with the loss of the sense of doer-ship in the
fruition of karma.’
Does any man understand ‘udaya karma no garva’ –
the sweetness of doer ship of the fruition of karma? Who in
India can understand this? One can understand it only after ‘we’
explain it to him.
Fruition of karma (udayakarma) means that the udaya
(fruition of karma) is doing the samayik, not me. Then he has
no garva (doer-ship) if he maintains this. But people cannot
refrain from tasting the garvaras, right? Do they taste it or not?
‘I did four samayiks’ one will say and when you ask ‘why do
you say four?’ he will reply, ‘this man did only one’. I will
understand right away that this man is headed for moksha, for
sure (!)
What happens by taking garva? Your ‘neck’ gets
caught in a noose. Forget about moksha, but you create
thousands of lifetimes worth of obstacles towards moksha. He
did garva of samayik! Garva of the worldly life such as ‘we
went to this place’ and ‘we went to that place’ occurs. Does
one not take garva about going to different places? As if he
achieved something! As if his worries are gone. That is called
garva.
That is why people use the expression ‘a noose on the
neck’. It is a noose around your neck when you say you did
samayik, or you did pratikraman, or you did penance; that is
called taking garva.
Now what does it mean when people say, ‘A Sat Purush