Aptavani-9 329
What does garva mean? I will explain this to you. When someone tells you he did four samayiks( introspective meditation), you will see great happiness on his face. Then if you ask him how many samayik some other person did, he will tell you,‘ He cannot do samayik. He did only one’. If you ask him,‘ You do four samayiks?’ he will respond,‘ Then who else? I am the one who did them.’ That is when we realize how intoxicated he is with the sense of doer-ship( keyf of garvaras)! He may have all kinds of notions of greatness. Then if you ask him the next day‘ How many samayiks did you do today?’ he will tell you he could not do any because his legs were hurting or he had a headache. So did he do the samayik yesterday or his legs? Who did it? If you did the samayik then do not use your legs as an excuse. You were able to do a samayik because your legs were fine and your head or your stomach was not hurting you. When everything is regular and the circumstances are conducive, then you can do the samayik. So why do you alone take the doer-ship for it; take credit for it? Therefore when something is dependent on other circumstances, what part in it is yours? Do people take such doer-ship or not? It is just egoism that one continues to do so. Scientific circumstantial evidences do everything but one claims‘ I am doing it’ and that is garvaras. The worldly life continues as long as this habit of tasting garvaras continues. Will you not have to understand this? Can such wrong belief continue to prevail?
Questioner: But are we not born with all this?
Dadashri: Yes, one is born with it but that awareness does not stay does it? And he continues to enjoy garvaras.‘ He’ likes the garvaras a lot. The moment he says,‘ I did four samayiks,’ he swells with pride and then he feels sorry for the person who does only one samayik. He will say that this poor man cannot do samayiks. First, he feels sorry for the man and then he becomes contemptuous; he has tiraskar towards him. So the worldly life is perpetuated as a result of garvaras. That