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liberation) in the scriptures; the solution is through experiential
knowledge. Therefore, go to a Gnani instead of wrecking your
brain and ruining your eyes reading the scriptures.’ But then
people brag unnecessarily! Then the intoxication (keyf) of ‘I
know’ increases. That is a very strong intoxication. The
intoxication from alcohol comes down if we pour water over a
drunk but this intoxication can never come down, not even if
the Lord himself was to come down to decrease it. People
also have their own ideas about God because of the
intoxication (keyf) of ‘I know it’ has arisen within. When will
all this end for them?
Along with this keyf, one also harbors a desire for maan;
he wants importance and respect from others. As it is, he has
the habit of enjoying garvaras (taste of doer-ship). He would
not let go of garvaras, would he? It is very sweet. His
garvaras keeps increasing every time he says, ‘I did this’ and
‘I did that.’ How good he feels when he tells people what he has
done! Does he not feel good?
Have the ego of ‘I don’t know anything’
When does one attain the essence (dharma) of anything?
When he reads with intense devotion the words of great men;
highly evolved spiritual being with an inner intent of (bhavna) ‘I
do not know anything’, he binds merit karma (punya) and when
he does it with the intent of ‘I know it’, then he binds demerit
karma (paap) for sure.
Questioner: But it used to happen with only the bhaav
of ‘I know it’.
Dadashri: Nevertheless, what I am saying is that this is
all contrary. People merely believe they are binding merit
karmas; at least it is better than gambling.
Questioner: But how does that bind demerit karma
(paap)? That is not his intention. No one even gets hurt.