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have any understanding, no money and yet he has endless
arrogance) and some even used to say that I had lot of
ghemraji (such people do not value anyone). I did not have
Gnan at that time, but because I had collected baggage (karmic)
of such high quality from my past life, I felt that I was somebody.
I knew that and consequently had ghemraji about it.
I have awareness of what the ego (ahamkar) should be
and what abhimaan should be. Today you cannot find a person
with only ego (ahamkar); there is always some degree of
perversion of the ego and for sure it has progressed to the stage
of abhimaan.
A person with ego only is considered spontaneous and
natural. It is a natural ego but such a person is not to be found
in this current time cycle. Where can one find such an ‘ego only’
person? Today we have people with abhimaan. What is ego?
It is the belief, ‘I am Chandulal’, but that is a natural state and
he is not at fault for having this belief. But what is abhimaan?
When someone says, ‘see this bungalow of mine, see this
hospital of mine, see this factory of mine’ then realize what is
talking; his abhimaan is talking.
Questioner: But you said that your abhimaan had
increased, then how did it go down to zero?
Dadashri: All of a sudden! I did not do anything. ‘This
is but natural’; it occurred naturally. That is why I tell people
they should not try to imitate this. What are you going to do
when it is a natural phenomenon? Now come to me and I will
show you the way. I have found a path. But if you try to follow
the path that I took to get to this stage, you will die, because my
abhimaan had gone from 25% to 150%, and I could not bear
it. Only I know how I managed to pass those days!
Questioner: There is a saying, ‘one had abhimaan
worth a quarter of a pound. As he became learned it increased