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Aptavani-9
Dadashri: There is no abhimaan where there is saiyam
(absence of kashaya). Abhimaan is blind and where there is
saiyam, you will not find abhimaan. Not only abhimaan but
you will not find ego (ahamkar) there either.
The zero state of the Gnani Purush
‘We’ are allowed to have abhimaan about attaining the
status of the Lord of the whole universe and yet ‘we’ have less
abhimaan than even a young child. ‘We’ do not have an ego
ahamkar at all. ‘We’ would not be able to attain all this if ‘we’
had ego. The one who has no ownership of the body, the mind,
the speech; he becomes the owner of the entire universe.
Questioner: But some people say that one can often see
abhimaan in a Gnani Purush. How can that be?
Dadashri: Where there is abhimaan, there is no Gnan,
and where there is Gnan, there cannot be any abhimaan.
Questioner: Does that mean that Gnan and abhimaan
cannot co-exist?
Dadashri: Gnan and abhimaan can never co-exist.
There is either Gnan or abhimaan. If you see abhimaan when
you slap the ‘Gnani’, then that is ignorance (agnan) and you will
clearly see that he cannot be a Gnani.
Yes, until ‘we’ attained Gnan, deh-abhimaan (abhimaan
of ‘I am this body’) existed. It increased, as I grew older. When
I was born it was about 25% but as I grew up, it increased
150%! It used to gnaw at me even when it was about 25% so
do you think it did not bite me more as it increased? When it
bites or gnaws at you, it is abhimaan and when there is
internal suffering, it is the ahamkar ego. Abhimaan is a
constant gnawing.
Instead of just mere ego, I had abhimaan (pride with
‘my-ness’). I was also a tundmijaji (someone who does not