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upon your karmic account, is it not? Just because someone else
has been able to get rid of it, does that mean that you too will
be able to do so? Not everyone has the same suspicions. So
You have to ask within, ‘What are you suspicious about? What
kinds of suspicions remain?’ One may reply, ‘No, I do not have
any suspicions left any more.’ Those who do will remain here for
a while and by asking me questions, their suspicions will go
away and their problems will be solved.
Questioner: When you ask me who I am, I have
suspicions about saying, ‘I am Shuddhatma.’
Dadashri: The one who has this suspicion ‘I am
Shuddhatma’ is verily the Shuddhatma. So ‘You’ are not sitting
in the right seat. Take the correct seat, that seat will let You see
who is having the suspicion.
Gnan shows its presence, where such a
suspicion arises
Now, after attaining this Gnan when you do something
and have a suspicion of ‘will I be bound by my mistake?’ at this
time because of the presence of the Self, that suspicion will fade
away. Otherwise, who would have such suspicions? Do people
of this world have such suspicions? Why not? It is because the
Self is not present there.
So who experiences suspicions over doer-ship, over the
belief, ‘I am the doer’? Whenever you have such a suspicion,
know that the Self is present there and that is why that suspicion
fades away.
Questioner: As long as the light of Gnan is burning that
is when suspicions arise. How can there be suspicion when there
is no such light?
Dadashri: Yes. You can see insects being crushed by a
car only if the car’s headlights are on but what if there is no
light? There will be no suspicion at all.