Aptavani-9
153
This world is trapped because of suspicions. Very rarely
will the mahatma who has taken Gnan, have suspicion even for
a fraction of a second about the Self. This has not happened; it
has never been heard of to occur. Here ‘we’ have not heard of
anything like suspicion.
Questioner: Those who have not heard of the Self
before would not have any suspicions but those who have heard
of Atma repeatedly, will wonder, which is true, this or that?
Dadashri: What is the reason when a person does not
have suspicion about the Self after having heard about it? After
attaining this Gnan, one attains the experience that he indeed is
the Self, and this experience never leaves; it is present even
when he wakes up at two in the morning. Such a phenomenon
as this, where the Self presents automatically, can never occur
anywhere in the world. This is what we call the experience
(anubhav). Attaining the Self is considered the experience.
The awareness (laksha) of the Self is considered the
experience (anubhav) because the Self is present even before
he wakes up.
So, the one whose suspicion is gone has attained the
absolute Self. Otherwise, no one’s suspicions of, ‘What is the
Soul like?’ are likely to go away. The suspicion and uncertainty
of ‘there is Atma’ may go away on occasion, but not the
suspicion over ‘What is the Atma like?’ This is deeply
entrenched.
Turmoil and anguish will occur wherever there is
suspicion. When there is no suspicion, not even for a fraction
of a second; that is where the Self is. Then there is no
suspicion left.
After Gnan, there is no one left to suspect
Once suspicions depart, everything falls into place.
However, the fact you are rid of your suspicion is dependant