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Aptavani-9
Dadashri: Yes, that is right. Now you will not have any
suspicions about your wife or anyone else in your home, will
you? These are all ‘files’ and there is nothing to become
suspicious about; is anything worth being suspicious about?
Whatever is the karmic account, whatever the karmic connection,
the ‘files’ will wander accordingly and your goal is to go to
moksha.
That is a dangerous disease
When doubt (vahem) enters in these matters, it will give
you a lot of happiness, will it not?
Questioner: It gnaws away on the inside, like big ants!
Dadashri: Yes, all the waking hours it will eat you alive.
It is like the disease of tuberculosis! In fact TB is better; it
remains active only for a certain time. So suspicion is like the
infection of TB The one in whom suspicion arises, is in the same
condition as the one who comes in contact with TB and
becomes infected with it. Therefore suspicion does not help in
any way. It only causes harm. It should be uprooted the moment
it starts; otherwise it will grow into a tree!
Effects of suspicions
What does suspicion mean? It is like putting a pound of
salt in the milk pudding that is prepared for a large gathering.
What happens if we do that? The milk will turn rancid. People
do not realize the liability of doing this. ‘We’ stay far away from
suspicion. ‘We’ do have thoughts, ‘we’ have a mind so thoughts
are inevitable, but ‘we’ do not have any suspicions. If ever ‘we’
were to look at someone with a suspicious eye, his mind will
become estranged from ‘us’ the next day; the next day he will
begin to feel different about ‘us’.
Therefore, do not have suspicions about anyone or
anything. You have to be alert (jagrut) but not suspicious
towards the other people. Suspicions will destroy you. Whatever