Aptavani-6
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Everyone has ‘sticky’ files (heavy accounts of karma)
nowadays. If you had no sticky files, there would be no need for
you to sit with the Gnani Purush for years.
Questioner: Dada, do something so that our files will
disappear, just like that.
Dadashri: It is like this: Until the energies of the Self
manifest (within you), your work cannot be accomplished. Now,
if I do it for you, then that energy will remain dormant. You have
to let them express, do you not? Do you not have to destroy the
veils of ignorance over the Self? Those veils will begin to be
destroyed from the moment you decide to settle the files. You
do not have to do anything in it. All You have to do is have the
inner intent (bhaav) to settle with equanimity, even if the file is
very difficult.
You have to make the Self independent (niralumb). Until
it becomes niralumb, dependency (avalumban) will remain,
and it will not become absolute as long as there is dependency.
Niralumb Self is the absolute Atma. So that is what You have
to attain. Do not worry if You do not attain it in this life. It will
happen in the next life for sure. All You have to do is remain in
the Agnas and settle the files with equanimity, in this life. That is
the greatest Agna, and how many sticky files can there be? It is
not as if there are two hundred to five hundred sticky files, are
there? There are only two to four, and really the fun lies in
dealing with the sticky ones!
Questioner: Many times, it becomes very difficult to settle
the sticky file; in doing so, I become ill and upset.
Dadashri: All that weakness will go away. However much
of that weakness goes away; that much power (shakti) will arise
within you. You will feel you have more power than before.
In 1939, when I was about 30-31 years old, I had gone
to a village for business on a contract to build a bridge. A local