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Aptavani-6
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Equanimity with Sticky Files
Questioner: Is ‘settling all files with equanimity’ the greatest
thing to do in the worldly life?
Dadashri: Yes, the problem is only with the files. You
have become stuck by these files only. The files are what obstruct
you, nothing else. Everywhere else you are free from attachment
and abhorrence (vitarag).
Questioner: What should I do if despite the intent of
wanting very much to settle with equanimity, I am not able to?
Dadashri: Yes, that can happen but you are not liable for
that. You have to make a decision that, ‘Even if things are not
settled with equanimity, I will never change my intent of wanting
to do so.’ You should never feel, ‘The Heck with it, I do not
want to bother settling with equanimity.’ Do not let go of Your
intent of, ‘I want to settle with equanimity, without fail.’ Whether
the settlement occurs with equanimity or not, is under the control
of vyavasthit.
Questioner: It may not be settled today but will it settle
for sure in two or three days?
Dadashri: Eighty percent of the time it gets settled on its
own. Only ten to fifteen percent do not get settled, and that is
because they (the files) are very sticky. But even then, You are
not liable for that; ‘vyavasthit’ is. You have decided that You
definitely want to settle with equanimity. All your efforts should
be towards settling files with equanimity.