Aptavani-5
115
Questioner: The intense feeling of missing (viraha) the
Gnani Purush; this agony within caused by inability to have
direct darshan and contact with the Gnani Purush, what kind
of suffering vedana is that?
Dadashri: Oh ho ho, that experience! It gives rise to
‘electricity’ with which the Self becomes illuminating (tejavaan).
It is the most privileged phenomenon one can experience.
Such an experience occurs very rarely. It occurs after
acquaintance of many lifetimes. It comes to those who are
ready to go to moksha. You do not have to be in a hurry for
it. You have wasted so many lifetimes, so now what more are
you going to lose in one or two more lifetimes? You have
wandered so many lifetimes and you have not become weary
and tired from it, so are you likely to become tired in two more
lifetimes?
The State of Sat Chit Anand
The Self is verily Sat Chit Anand (sacchidanand; the
awareness of the eternal is bliss.). This chit has become asat
(that which is changing and is not permanent). Thus pleasure
(sukh) is imaginary and pain (dukh) is also imaginary. However,
even though they are imagined, their effect is experienced as
real. Sat Chit Anand is Your state.
Questioner: Is the state of ‘Sat Chit Anand’ present in
everyone?
Dadashri: Yes, it is in every living being and it is verily the
Parmatma (the absolute Self).
The state of ‘Sat Chit Anand’ has two bhaav states.
One is swabhav and the other is vibhav. Swabhav means
that which is of the Self, and here vibhav means ‘additional’,
not of the Self, and not opposite or contrary. The wrong belief,
‘I am Chandubhai’ (vibhav) is a result of pressure from
circumstances.