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upayog, You have to immediately say, ‘Chandubhai, you lost
your upayog, it should not be this way.’
If someone gives me a change for a five or a ten-rupee
note, I do not count the change. He may give me 25 or 50 paisa
less but how much of my time would be wasted in counting?
You do not have to become uninterested- disinclined (nispruha)
towards money but do not ruin your upayog behind it. The
upayog is the most important thing.
For how long do you have to keep applying this
upayog? To the point where you keep remembering ‘Dada’
day and night. You miss His presence and suffer (viraho).
When light with the agony of His absence (viraha), ‘electricity’
will spark and enlighten everything within! This is the Light of
the Self.
Intense Agony of Separation from the Gnani
The suffering of separation is viraha. What does the
separated one (virahi) mean? Nothing can quell the restlessness.
Then understand, that the freedom from worldly entanglements
has occurred. The chit of a new bride will be with her husband
when he is at work, even though she is cooking a wonderful
meal at home.
The reality is that the Parmatma (the absolute Self) is
abheda swaroop – there is no separation from any living being.
If you long to be with the one who is abheda swaroop, then
your worldly life will run very smoothly and beautifully. The
worldly life is something that can run naturally but people
continue to interfere with its natural process. Just as everything
within the body works naturally after you eat a meal, the external
world runs even more naturally. The rule of nature is that it will
secrete digestive juices in just the right amount so that they will
last you for the rest of your life, but if the foolish humans have
anything to do with it; they will put in so much today that they
will run short the next year!