Aptavani-5 113
intellect is showing, where the chit is roaming, whether the ego within is being depressed or elevated; to continuously‘ see’ all this is verily our Drashta( the Self). The vishay( subject matter) of the vision( drashti) is the object( drashya) and You are the Seer( Drashta).
Questioner: Whatever unfolds during any external or internal situation, if I know that‘ this is not my swabhav( nature)’ then I will gain the experience( anubhav), will I not?
Dadashri: Yes, of course you will! The one who understands that,‘ this is not my nature’, he becomes established in the nature of the Self. This Gnan is such that your awareness( jagruti) does not leave, no matter how much agitated‘ Chandubhai’( the relative self) becomes. Besides, agitation is bound to occur because it is sitting within as a stock( an effect of past life causes), is it not?
Discharge is like‘ vomiting’. You cannot get upset with anyone who vomits on you, because it happens against the wishes of that poor person. What can he do? The kashays discharge just like vomiting. Then everything empties within and becomes clean.
What is focused awareness of the Self( upayog) like? If you were counting thousand rupee notes, would your focused awareness drift towards something else? That is called upayog. That is how My upayog is, all the time. Yours too will be the same if you stay with Me.
Questioner: Does that happen because one has varying interest in different states or other things?
Dadashri: There is no need to cultivate interest. You simply have to apply the upayog. You have to say,‘ Chandubhai, you are sitting in the realm and presence of Dada. So whatever is happening here, going on here, apply your upayog and proceed.’ Then You have to continue‘ seeing’, if he misses the