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can these mistakes be seen and destroyed.
Know that as your sleep and food intake decreases, so
does your spiritual apathy. They will increase your awareness.
With the elimination of faults, a person’s face will radiate
with inner light. His speech will become sweet and people will
be attracted to him.
Mistakes with strong atoms (parmanus) are easily seen
and evident. These mistakes represent the force of the prakruti.
In the relative world these heavy mistakes will make one become
more involved in the faults and the same force would reap great
spiritual progress if such a person were to attain Gnan
What does shuddha upyog of Atma (attentiveness of the
Pure Self) mean? It means that the Soul should not be left
alone, or unattended. When flying a kite, you would tie its string
to your toe. Similarly, you cannot lose sight, even for a moment,
of the awareness of the Self.
There are infinite faults. These faults make you fall asleep,
otherwise what do you need sleep for? Sleep is your enemy. It
is spiritual apathy. Apathy in awareness of the pure Self (shuddha
upyog) is considered impure awareness (ashuddha upyog).
In order to destroy all your faults, you will either have to
give service to the Gnani and the mahatmas, or do svapurusharth
(real independent effort). Darshan of Dada will give you the fruit
of devotional worship, but not of knowledge (Gnan).
If you believe that you have no faults or mistakes within
you, then how is it possible for you to see them? Such a person
will sleep soundly. Our ascetics do not sleep (remain inattentive).
They remain very alert.
The mistakes and faults that bite the owner, I call ‘electrical’
mistakes. The mistakes of darkness are the ones that escape