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Aptavani-1
Mistakes of darkness only become evident when a Gnani
sheds light on them. Your visible mistakes are better than the
mistakes that remain hidden in the dark. Those with ‘electricity’,
i.e. mistakes that are lit, can be seen.
What does one have to do ‘purusharth’ (effort) for? Only
after one becomes a Purush (Self-Realised), does one’s real
purusharth (real independent effort) and sva-parakram
(extraordinary independent effort) begin.
Within you is a warehouse of countless faults and mistakes.
It is only when you can see these faults and mistakes in every
passing moment, that you have accomplished your work. You
are the one responsible for filling this ‘warehouse’ with mistakes,
without consulting anyone.
Once the awareness of the pure Self is established, you
will begin to see your mistakes. Failure to see them is sheer
spiritual apathy (pramad - laziness).
During times of dire circumstances, Gnan will stand the
test. The Gnan has attained a very high level when one’s
awareness prevails uninterrupted even as one’s ears are being
cut off. Up until this level of awareness is attained, all else is
considered spiritual apathy.
Gnani Purush sleeps only for an hour. He is constantly
aware. The Self is all-illuminating and hence in this state, all is
visible, including the subtlest of mistakes. This awareness will
increase as one’s food intake and sleep decreases. Otherwise
from the vantage of the relative self, it is all spiritual apathy. Too
much sleep is spiritual apathy. Too much food is also spiritual
apathy (pramad). Pramad is like packing and sealing ‘the Self’
in a dark bag.
People have no inkling or awareness of what a mistake
is? Only through extraordinary independent effort (sva-parakram)