Worship Musician October 2018 | Page 41

to search for it and it’ s painful. It takes digging in and actual movement on your part. You can’ t just want this to happen …“ I’ m going to seek you and I’ m going to find you!” I wanted to do a video that showed people rising to their feet even if they feel a bit broken, even if they feel like they’ re not good enough. Choosing to step out boldly and fight for their life.

God uses broken people, he doesn’ t just use the angels to fulfill his purposes on earth, He uses humans. The story of Gideon really inspires me. He was threshing wheat in a wine press, hiding and cowering, and an angel comes and says,“ Hi there, mighty valiant warrior!” When God calls you to do something, when He asks it of you or tells you what you are, when He speaks, it actually is truth. It’ s amazing who God can use, and Gideon ends up becoming a mighty valiant warrior. These are the things I wanted to talk about and represent. When God speaks over you and you step out into it, He meets you and it will be. Sometimes you have to step out not feeling strong, still feeling broken, and let Him deal with the rest for you.

[ WM ] That’ s awesome! So, you’ re a woman who rocks out, plays loud, and performs. Noting that Skillet found you through your local Church, how did you make the transition from worship team member to rock star, and what are your thoughts on how to train one’ s‘ inner rock star’ without bringing a performance mentality to Sunday morning?

[ Jen ] I feel like I don’ t have answers that people want to hear, but I’ ll say them anyway because it’ s something that I’ m actually really passionate about. I know a lot of musicians that feel called to be on stage and be massively famous, and do it all in the name of Jesus. I think that as humans we have to be really careful about becoming obsessed with making our own names great. I think it is such a dangerous platform because as you know, Satan also wanted glory for himself. I just think it’ s something you have to be incredibly careful with because our hearts are deceitful above all things.

It’ s very easy to get tangled up with thinking you want to go and be a rock star to make Jesus’ name great. But really, is it that you just want to be a rock star and you’ re not willing to serve Jesus where you are right now? Something I’ ve learned in my life, and I feel like it’ s such an unpopular answer, but if your life isn’ t about Jesus now in the small, and if you don’ t have good relationships and see God moving where you are now, if you’ re not faithful with a little why would you be faithful with a lot? If you think that this is something God is calling you to, keep laying it at His feet, and keep surrendering it to Him. Because if it is Him, it will absolutely last through the fire and it will come back. It will happen if this is what He’ s called you to.

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