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WHO AM I ?
Along with the destruction of these lighter karmas during
the Gnan Vidhi, many of the aavrans (layers of ignorance over
the Soul) are broken down. At that time, through Divine Grace,
one becomes aware of the Self. Once awakened, the awareness
never leaves. Pratiti (the conviction that, “I am Pure Self”) will
always be there along with the awareness. Pratiti will only
remain as long as there is awareness. First comes the experience
of awakening and then comes pratiti. Pratiti is the conviction,
“I am Pure Self.” Anubhav (the experience), laksh (awareness),
and pratiti (conviction) all take hold. The pratiti is constant,
whereas laksh is wavering, and lasts for short periods. When
we become distracted or engrossed in our work, we may lose
that sense of awareness for that amount of time. But whenever
we have a moment’s respite from our work, it will return.
Anubhav of The Self is the experience that is felt when
one is relieved from his work and duties and when he sits in a
meditative state. It will continue to grow because he will perceive
what ‘Chandulal’ is now, as opposed to what ‘Chandulal’ was
before. What makes this difference? It is the experience of the
Atma. Before, one was in dehadhyas (conscious only of the
actions and temperament of the physical body) whereas now,
one is established as the Soul.
Questioner : What happens during experience of the
Soul?
Dadashri : The experience of the Self is the destruction
of the belief, “I am the body.” When the belief, “I am this
body,” goes, new karma cease to bind you. What more could
you want?
Questioner : I want you to show me this path of Gnan.
That is all.
Dadashri : Yes, I will show you this path. Not only will