Vagabond Multilingual Journal Spring 2014 | Page 27

These contradictions were related, on the one hand, to my pride and, on the other, to the fact I couldn’t allow
myself to be selfish and make him feel uncomfortable. And maybe I was also afraid of losing him…

People tend to tag this descriptions and attitudes as people in love material. They watch too many
films. I wasn’t in love with him. It was different. I wasn’t in love with him because when I fell in love there
were no shades. If I had been so madly in love with him, I would have revealed the theme of the mysticism
to him and I would have had to swallow my pride. Moreover, he was the romantic one. Not