Understanding Suicide Ver. 2 | Page 35

If you really knew me you would know that just last night I thought about cutting myself again.

If you really knew me you would know that I don’t feel good about myself at all.

If you really knew me you would know that I wish that my grandmother was still here with me.

If you really knew me you would know that I listen to music so I don’t have to listen to people talk about me.

If you really knew me you would know that I wish I could make my father love me.

If you really knew me you would know that I think about the baby I lost every day.

If you really knew me you would know that I blame myself for losing my baby.

If you really knew me you would know I think about drinking just to get away from my problems.

If you really knew me you would know that I don’t feel safe when I am with friends.

If you really knew me you would know that I would rather stay home on the weekends than hang out with friends.

If you really knew me you would know that I would rather stay to myself than talk to people.

If you really knew me you would know that I have only a FEW good friends.

If you really knew me you would know that I am really a good girl who acts bad to get people to notice her.

If you really knew me you would know that I am in love with my best guy friend and have been for 3 years now.

If you really knew me then you would know I have made myself puke up everything that I have eaten and I have made myself not eat because I feel like I need to lose weight.

If you really knew me you would know that I still to this day puke up my food when I feel that I have eaten way too much.

If you really knew me you would know that I stopped eating breakfast and lunch about 2 weeks ago and the only thing I eat is dinner and that is only because I have too.

If you really knew me you would know that I wish that I was out of my aunt and uncles house.

If you really knew me you would know that I have gotten in to fist fights with my uncle a number of times.

If you really knew me you would know that I…