White man, You love me?
Do you love me or am I just a sight of curiosity?
Do you love me or am I just the site of your ethnography?
My heart is too fragile for me to settle for just lust
My soul full of love just cannot trust...
You.
See, I've come to realize that everything the White man has touched is now broken
That everything the White man has touched is now cursed
To me, the White man's touch has become synonymous to bad news
The White man's love is "oh so uncertain"
Your love for me, White man is "oh so unsettling"
See my parents came from too far to see their daughter's heart colonized abroad
See my parents came from too far to see their heritage diluted
I need you to promise me that it will be worth it!
That the diluted skin of our offspring won't resonate like the genocide of my people
See, for when your forefathers came to the land of my ancestors, Blackness was to be eradicated
I have always wish to conquer someone's heart as they conquered mine, but White man I cannot bear to add myself to your list of conquests
Would you understand as I resent my mixed-race child for she has something of you I've always learn to mistrust?
Would you understand as I emphasize on their Blackness and encourage for the neglect of your essence?
Would you understand as I blame her bad actions on the drops of blood coming from your side?
Would you be able to take it as I defend my Black men with blood, sweat and tears before I ever defend you?
I dare this love to stop me from defending my own
Would you get it when I say: I see color FIRST
Would you get it as I limit my interactions with your people and even with your own family for the love I cannot justify is felt towards a White man and thus, EVERY other connection has to be towards my Black people?
I need you to tell me that our love will be worth the deadly gaze I'll receive from my Black men as they label me a sell-out
White man, there's no denying that our love is political with a mix of colonial and so, as you compliment and touch me, I refuse to feel fetishized
White man, You love me?
by Lalunedira