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By Susan Kern
Once Upon This Lifetime
She questioned the way things in her life had turned out. Nothing seemed to be the way she had imagined them in her youth. Why had things gone the way they had? Each time she pondered this question she ended empty handed and frustrated at her situation. As if walking in circles, she continued the relentless inquiry in her thoughts. There must be something in her thinking that was wrong, bad or harmful. She knew, or at least she liked to think she knew, that her thoughts created her reality. But which thoughts had brought her here? She would never willingly choose this life! But she had. She just didn’t understand how or why. Without the how and the why she would never figure a way out of this mess! Or was that necessarily true? What if that was just part of the erroneous thinking that got her stuck in the first place? What if there was no figuring needed? What if all she really needed to do to escape this was to know that she could? To choose that she could. Well, she thought, “that seems incredibly simple.” Could things really be that simple?
Ok, so how would it work? If she knew with some detail and certainty what it was that she wanted to be improved, and she could imagine the changes, would she be capable of summoning the energies to co-create something new?
The more her mind lingered on this, the more the excitement grew inside her. It really didn’t make any logical or rational sense, but that didn’t feel important today. She sensed the blood moving through her begin to be energized, touched by the growing excitement of possibility. The likelihood that anything could be possible had never felt real for more than a fleeting second. Yet today was an entirely new day with entirely new possibility. Where it came from didn’t seem to matter. Just the gratitude that was building along with the excitement mattered now.
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