The Pearls of Catharsis Times Issue 01, Oct 2016 | Page 10

So what!? if I broke up with Nel a year ago this doesn’ t mean anything it’ s just the illusion of time passing that has got everyone pestering me. Besides I’ m not completely neglecting my love life I am passively looking for the perfect person. There’ s just so much to consider: What do I even want in a partner? Am I looking for something serious or do I want someone just to have regular sex with? Should I consider my most recent break-up, should I lower my standards? Should I forget about looks and physical attraction and ask my best friend out? Maybe I have been secretly crushing on him for a while? Maybe a little. But I’ m so exhausted from my previous relationship, am I really ready to go back out there? Oh who am I kidding, I have no idea how to answer those questions, it’ s clear what I have to do: find new friends. I just have to find a way to get rid of them with no hard feelings. It will be difficult after all, I’ ve known them since high school, but it must be done for the sake of my sanity.“ Whoa, are you okay?” Asks this tall dark and handsome guy from my economics class. Every time I look at him I always feel paranoid because I think he is secretly filming some block-buster-to-be and I am probably the cliché awkward nerd who doesn’ t know their place in their world. He is so annoying, for two main reasons: fuelling my paranoia with his dark hair and beautiful face secondly, always bumping into me when I’ m thinking. When I think to myself I walk looking down. It’ s something that just happens and it’ s not because I’ m shy, I just prefer not be interrupted by people making that are you okay look while I’ m absentmindedly looking passed them, you know? And he, well he is always bumping into me as if he is saying he can’ t see me walking or even worse I want him to save me from my low self-esteem, like I’ m some sort of damsel in distress. I am not and I never will be in fact, I am probably the third strongest willed young person I know. Anyway, I nod and pick up my pace.