The Mistery of Belicena Villca eroded his character . And that ' s why I understood then that the change was justified , even predictable , since the letter of Belicena Villca met his expectations for so many years postponed . Well it was clear , since he himself had confessed it , that his instructions for after the war , " instructions from the Gods " forced him to remain in that place , and that my arrival carrying the letter , and the presumed and imminent attack by the Druids , were proofs that this waiting had almost finished .
– Really , neffe --was the first thing Uncle Kurt said , confirming my presumptions-- it is not the letter that has affected me to an extent that you cannot imagine , but the Mystery of Belicena Villca , what was hidden behind her real existence and that is now discovered before us . From the letter , neffe , from its content , it is possible to assume a purely intellectual participation ; but from the Mystery that the letter and the death of Belicena pose , of the Mystery of the House of Tharsis , it is not possible to exclude oneself without being left out of the Strategy of the Gods .
The Mystery has come to us --here Uncle Kurt decidedly included himself on my adventure-- and we can ' t and shouldn ' t try to avoid it . Now that the kairos allows it , we have to go until the end , until the Tyrodal Order , until Nimrod de Rosario , until Noyo de Tharsis and the Wise Sword , until the Final Battle .
I nodded , still surprised by the firm and supportive attitude of my uncle . He continued , astonishing me once more .
– Look Arturo , I have thought in these days more than you can suppose , evaluating the events that occurred and calculating each step that must be carried out in the future . Through this global strategic analysis , and taking into account my personal experience , that you will soon have the opportunity to know what it consists of since I will tell you the story of my life , I have drawn some conclusions that it would be good to take into consideration . First of all , and as I assumed from the beginning , I have verified that you are not at all prepared to face this mission . --I wanted to protest , but Uncle Kurt raised his hand in an unappealable way and I decided to allow him to complete his exposition-- . Listen well , neffe : I didn ' t say you cannot carry it out but that you are not yet ready to undertake the mission . But you will be very soon if you understand my arguments and follow my instructions to the letter .
– Therefore , the first thing you should understand is that you never start a mission like this without a previous detachment . I understand it , and you don ' t need to explain it to me , that such detachment is a state of spiritual consciousness that you experienced from the moment you embarked on this adventure : right now you feel disconnected from the world , freed from the material bondages . But I must tell you realistically that such an attitude is completely subjective , naive , hindering to achieve the spiritual objective ; an attitude that does not take into consideration the enemies that will treat to prevent the implementation of the mission , enemies endowed with terrible powers and enjoying absolute mobility ; an attitude , in short , which is strategically suicidal . Because , is he really " disconnected from the world " someone who is preparing to " fulfill a spiritual mission " taking advantage of " his period of vacation ”; someone who depends " on money " to travel , on money that it is limited and that at some point may ran out ; someone who underestimates the enemy and leaves behind himself , outside of himself , " weak points " that can be easily attacked and destroyed , that is , someone who travels without previously renouncing to the love for the “ things of the world ”, whatever they may be , the family , the properties , the friends , the usual context where the routine life takes place , etc ., all possible " targets " of enemy blows ? No neffe ; whoever behaves like this is pure and simple , a good man , but not a good warrior : he will never fulfill his mission ; the Enemy will stop him by striking behind his back , threatening or destroying that from “ the outside " that he loves , that to which he is really connected , bound , or attached , even though he may not admit or acknowledge it .
I fully understood his point of view and immediately agreed with him : in truth I was still tied to many things and my trip could not have been more improvised . However , I had little time to decide on my Destiny . Rather , Destiny decided for me , without giving me time to change , to wake up , to " prepare " as Uncle Kurt intended . Everything had happened so fast ! What should I do now ? This is what I would ask Uncle Kurt :
– What else could I do given the circumstances , considering how the events occurred ? I questioned more to myself than to Uncle Kurt , trying to justify myself . It ' s true , I still have my job , but I didn ' t happen to think that I might not return . And as for the money : I am not rich and you know it ; and I really don ' t know how I will go about getting what I need if this adventure goes on too long . The affective , on the other hand , the love of my family and friends , I suppose I will not know how well I master it until I ' m put to a test : with the heart you never know , Uncle Kurt ! Yes , the reproaches are fair , but you should be the one who orients me at this time , otherwise I will have no choice but to continue in the same " naive " way as I started .
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