The Mahdi Times December Issue | 页面 4

STRAIGHTPATHMONTHLY December 2011 4 This is all before the satellite channels that spread the Message of Ahlul Bayt a.s. That was the first time I heard in detail what happened in Karbala, as a child I became attached Hussain a.s straight away and that still remains. I learnt early on that the Pain of Hussain a.s is the greatest Pain, so if I was upset about something I would listen to Noha's and Matam and Masaib which spoke about the Calamities of Ahlul Bayt a.s and cry to those. It has become a part of me that if I see anything I refer to Ahlul Bayt a.s.  When I see a 6 month old baby, I always think of Ali Asghar a.s, when I see a 4 year old girl, I think Sakina a.s was that age, when I see a 13 year old, I think of Qasim a.s, Aun a.s and Muhammad a.s...When I have been ill, I always thought of Imam Sajjad a.s who in his illness was whipped and chained all the way to Shaam. Wallahi, since I have known about Ahlul Bayt a.s I have forgotten everything. When I came to know of Karbala, I forgot myself completely. When I think of Hussain a.s and everything that took place in Karbala and then in Shaam, I swear as Allah swt is my Witness, it is as though my soul screams to have been with them and I am sure I am not the only one.  When I visited Zainab a.s in Shaam on my Ziyarat, I remember just standing there and talking to her, talking to her, talking to her about Karbala. I was a few meters from her and I just could not believe the daughter of my Master Ali a.s was right in front of me. What I felt when I would visit her Shrine, I cannot even explain. When I visited Sakina a.s, the Darbaar where they were brought as prisoners, I cannot explain. Even as I type this, I see it all in my mind. I see the Bazaar that the children of my Fatima a.s and Ali a.s were made to walk through and Zainab a.s did not have a Veil and the cursed ones would pelt them with stones... I see the place where the head of my Master Hussain a.s was put on the stone, and where my Imam Sajjad a.s gave the Khutbah at the Darbaar of Yazid l.a... I visited the grave of Fatima Sughra a.s, the Mazlooma that was left behind, I visited Fizza pbuh, who witnessed it all, from the broken ribs of Fatima a.s to the murders of the ones at Karbala to the veils being ripped off from the Daughters of Muhammad s.a.w, Fizza pbuh was a wall for Zainab a.s when they would throw stones at her, Wallahi, it never leaves me. Everything has left me, but the pain of Ahlul Bayt a.s.  When I think of the situation the Children of Ali a.s and Fatima a.s were in and this was all 1400 years ago, time was the barrier that did not allow me to be there and Ultimately Allah swt Uses Whatever Tools He Wills and the Will of Allah swt is Just, but I still have a guilt. How I wish I was there to sacrifice everything for my Imams a.s and Hussain a.s. That thought never leaves me. What can I do for my Imams a.s?Mola Ali Waaris. If only I was there when they stole Fadak from Fatima a.s...If only I had sons to stand behind A