That was 4 years ago. I finally feel it is time. I tried in the past, after my divorce, but wasn’t ready. That was also one the reasons my friend in Chicago got away, I wasn’t ready mentally for a relationship. It really took me all this time to not only get over the ex, but to get over the abuse he put me through and accept he used me, he never loved me. So the best thing for me was to take the time and basically date myself in a way. I needed to get myself back. I did come back, and I am better than before. Plus I am 18lbs lighter.
Even though my friend told me I wasn’t fat and I had an amazing body, not all men are like him that likes a girl that is on the plus side. I do want make the Cleveland Clinic goal and I got 15lbs to go on that. I know I will always have hips and breasts, with an hour glass look. That I am very proud of, but I know I need to lose more weight. I am doing it for me. I love how my body is transforming. I promised, well it was a bet if I get to 20lbs lost I will wear a tankini for a picture, well not at 20lbs yet, but I feel confident to wear shorts, which I have not worn in, well 4.5 years, that is why I choose to wear shorts to show my weight loss.
This issue been about amazing women and expressing you, I am an amazing woman, and losing weight for myself has really shown this to me. My word to describe me is hopeful. I am hopeful that there is someone better for me out there to see what an amazing woman I really am. I am hopeful that everything is done for a reason. I am hopeful about life in general. Hope is a great treasure to have, and that why I am hopeful. So this is my photo for the collage, it is me raw, no makeup, with hope radiating from my eyes.