for me was at best, running out…and quickly.
Here is where that spontaneous decision gets sticky, although it is obvious to me now that my decision to avoid a lifetime of prescription medications in order to deal with my trauma of the past was a wise choice; I still nonetheless was taking a huge misstep in life by doing so. After several weeks of attempting to locate an alternative route to prescription medications all with zero positive results, I found myself sinking deeper and deeper into my depression. Finally the day came when I turned the volume of the negative voice within me up to the maximum level, and began listening to the plan that sounded at the time like my only option available. This option was nearly the undoing of my purpose in life, the extinguishing of my passion for life, and my path to exiting this world leaving a legacy of shame and heartbreak. I decided to self-medicate and just like that, virtually overnight…I dove head first within an addiction to street drugs that would drag me spirit first over the rockiest terrain for the next 14 years.
Looking back in retrospect, it is now of course much easier for me to understand, clearer for me to see and share with others just what a potentially fatal decision this truly was, my self-medicating to avoid the pain, but nonetheless does not in any way discount how I was actually feeling at the time.
lived the hard part, so face that truth and begin embracing your destiny, begin the separating of truth from fiction, remove fear and replace it with faith.
This life provides countless “opportunity intersections”, and as you approach each, be encouraged and know that whomever or whatever is making its’ way towards you has been looking forward to receiving what you have for them, just as much as you have been looking forward to sharing it.
So, there it is, the answer to the question that attempts to discourage, redirect, and rob; “Why would anyone want to listen to me?” Because…YOU have a message that MUST be shared, a story that MUST be told…that is why!
When feeling as if we have gone as far as one can go, have done all that one can do…the search for freedom from pain can lead to some very unhealthy decisions, which for various reasons will make all the sense in the world at the time. The healing of emotional wounds is in my opinion