I became so overwhelmed with doing
well in college that my relationships with men,
friends and those that I should have been close
to became poor. Being overwhelmed turned
into a suicide attempt during the spring
semester of my freshman year. I put on my
favorite dress and closed and locked my dorm
door. I was ready to die.
I came to in a hospital where my
roommate and another college friend were
sitting with me. They made me laugh and tried
to encourage me that everything would be fine. My stomach was pumped after I consumed
over 100 pain relievers. I shared a few laughs
with my worried friends and I still had doubts; I
continued to think I did not deserve or no
longer wanted to be on earth. A doctor came
in hours later with paperwork and explained to
me and my friends that I would not be
permitted to leave unless I agreed to not
attempt suicide again. Listening to the pleas of
my friends to tell the doctor what he wanted to
hear, I agreed, but still kept the dark thought in
the back of mind that I would, indeed, try
again.
Healing & Moving Forward
While this catastrophe detrimentally
affected my life, I have successfully survived
and overcome the sexual abuse. I began to
heal after forming a closer relationship with
God and joining an outstanding church in
North Carolina. After plea F