Unbearable
Don’t let the smile deceive you
Did I say I had figured it out
Did I say it was perfect
Perhaps I said it was find
Yet deep inside
The eyes that you now look at
Were swollen yesternight
I wish you could see through my
pain
I wish I knew how I struggled
I was not okay Hiding it was not easy
Maybe I thought I was okay How the tears would balance in
Even when I was broken
I said I was okay
I felt like I was crumbling
My face however showed
something else
my eyes
How they’d try to break out
How I pushed them away
Just to wait till dark
When I’d wet my pillow
At times it was unbearable
I thought of telling you
But then no
Just like the rest you would judge
Like all of them you would not
understand